getting into the blogger motion is a little more than type some words, hit the button. it's more than a physical thing, for me anyway.
i do highly admire those that seem to have their blog engrained in their daily habit so much so that they don't miss a routinely scheduled post. no matter what seems to be going on in their life. maybe this is the proper outlet for them, I'm not sure, i tend to not make a habit out of speaking for other people. i have yet to ask them because, well... i've been away for a very long time and it's hard to get the needle into the groove while feeling as though i've missed a chunk of their life. however awkward, i am stepping quitely back into the bloggy-fold and trying to support those who supported me so long ago. i miss that little circle and hope to return wiser and better for my absence.
so, the swing of things, getting back into writing has been good. it's fantastic actually. i missed hearing the voices of characters, feeling their emotions so deeply that I grow angry, dance along, or even cry for them, and flail my arms in aghast at their frustrations, it's a different kind of life the writer lives in fiction and in real life, but i love it.
in the past i've made several promises to myself all getting side tracked and falling to the wayside because of one obtsicle or another. and what i've learned in this process is that promises are light and frivolous. i'm not particarlly proud of this, but unfortunatly that seems to be the case with promises to myself (any promises made to another i do follow through with, it's easier to let myself down than them-- it's something i've always stood by and always will)but i have found that i will not make promises to myself anymore - i will just do.
in my just doing i have written and rewritten a short story, getting it ready for beta laurie's eyes. i have started blogging again and for lack of another good example i have broken down to join a gym and i'm actually going (i've always worked out, i'm just trying to get out of the house more). my point? Just DO is action. i'm ready for it and i'm making it happen. no promises. just do. get back into the swing of things.